20.1.2008 - IN THE SHIP

Lets start again to turn into iner self by writing.

Firstly, I ‘ve tried  to ESCAPE via hard music but then I’ve recognized that ‘s useless because my heart  couldn’t be unbroken harder by listening hard voices of the earth. So then I’ve  started to call the voice prayers again and again. It was useful but I stil could hear the screams of the little ones  inside. Maybe strength of writing could be helpfull to become peacefull for them.

I’ve denied to seek for refuge to being “hard” but I’ve said to myself that I would be able to stand to the weight of my feelings. I’ve  said to myself that if I wouldnt call the dark for help then Allah would help me by lightening my heart. Now teh help of light has come .Now , its light everywhere inside and outside.Thanks  to Him who is the owner of all souls.What a same we are ,all people together and not. And what a different we are , all people  together and apart when we see the world from eyes of each person whom I look at. I see the sings of same One God either we believe or not.He stands in our eyes and look at us by endless mercy of Him and He touches to our souls with merciful fingers of all things. God that creates the dark to make us find the light saying that there is no dark!

21.12.2007 Balıkesir’den dönerken.